Trying hard to concentrate on the book,
She knew she was being looked upon as an alien in the bus
When they were all glued to their smartphones, both with eyes and ears.
Neither did they know her state of mind
Nor that she was trying to scrutinize
She was down in the dumps
Too scared to look out the window pane
or hear a song on her playlist
Everything reminded of him, even the air she breathed.
He came as a chill winter breeze and left like a thunderstorm,
destructing every single drop of love and hope in her.
Trying hard to forgive him, forget him and forgive herself
Her big brown eyes well up with fresh tears.
She was head over heels in love, not having a care in the world
But now she is broken to tiny bits, for which she blames herself.
She danced to mend her broken heart, indulged in hot chocolates,
Fought hard battling her own demons and went defensive
Alas! Questions still prevailed in her heart, Was I a mere distraction he wanted in life?
He has chosen to humiliate her with his silence, mortifying and bemeaning.
Withdrawing herself from any means of admittance
She has shut all doors, giving what he always wanted- solace, peace and space.
He haunts, in her dreams, by her side
When his hand finds her, making it hard to leave and giving her a soothing pain.
Part of her wishing to turn and go back in time
When…she believed in him.
She screams for help fearing of going into depression.
Lost, empty and tormented
not able to feel another thing,
her journey continues in life, hatred and loneliness.