Trying hard to concentrate on the book,
She knew she was being looked upon as an alien in the bus
When they were all glued to their smartphones, both with eyes and ears.
Neither did they know her state of mind
Nor that she was trying to scrutinize
She was down in the dumps
Too scared to look out the window pane
or hear a song on her playlist
Everything reminded of him, even the air she breathed.
He came as a chill winter breeze and left like a thunderstorm,
destructing every single drop of love and hope in her.
Trying hard to forgive him, forget him and forgive herself
Her big brown eyes well up with fresh tears.
She was head over heels in love, not having a care in the world
But now she is broken to tiny bits, for which she blames herself.
She danced to mend her broken heart, indulged in hot chocolates,
Fought hard battling her own demons and went defensive
Alas! Questions still prevailed in her heart, Was I a mere distraction he wanted in life?
He has chosen to humiliate her with his silence, mortifying and bemeaning.
Withdrawing herself from any means of admittance
She has shut all doors, giving what he always wanted- solace, peace and space.
He haunts, in her dreams, by her side
When his hand finds her, making it hard to leave and giving her a soothing pain.
Part of her wishing to turn and go back in time
When…she believed in him.
She screams for help fearing of going into depression.
Lost, empty and tormented
not able to feel another thing,
her journey continues in life, hatred and loneliness.
How overwhelmingly sad!
Heartbreaking, Kathy… thanks for visiting!
Thoughts of very women who felt betrayed by the so called love of their life!
And still we go behind love…!! Unbelievable!
awesome one!!!
Thanks, Annie.. glad you stopped by.
So very sad. Poor woman! 🙁
🙁 hope she copes up..
Ahh the turmoils of hurt, the danger of letting it all slip away due to one person
Yeah Naba… letting it all slip away.. 🙁
Aah! A broken heart bleeds tears! Hope she finds peace, love and happiness again!
It’s amazing how love can place us at the top of the highest pinnacle and down to the depths of despair. So sad to hear such a tale of woe, yet so common in real life. 😉 <3
it’s so hard to overcome these lonely thoughts of depression… you expressed the pain very well.
Heartbreaking, Shalini. As always your poems are powerful and have a melancholic tone. I hope you don’t mind me asking, Are you okay? Only beacuse I have noticed that I write impressive poems when I am sad. Don’t mind me asking, okay, please. 🙂
Oh no, Vinitha…it’s completely okay.. jus that im gng thru a rough patch..trying to figure out myself more than anything else. I guess I write well when I’m sad. 🙂 thanks much for asking. Means a lot… hugs.. ♥♥
I understand, rough patches are rough for a reason. It brings out the better in one’ self. And yours is so good. Just that your writings is giving me the idea that the roughness is so crude. That’s why I asked. Keep writing. You will be in my prayers. Just know that we are here for you., okay? Hugs <3.
Yeah..everything happens for a reason. But certain things?? Can’t understand the reason though!! May be it makes you realise how low a person can stoop down. Thanks for having me in your prayers. Guess I need that more than anything 🙂
It is called life, right. Those certain things are there in everyone’s life. I have too. Unanswered and twisted. Getting through is the hardest. Even now I can’t think of them without getting teary eyed and a broken heart. But the point is, ‘This too shall pass’. And I am sure you will pass with flying colors dear. 🙂
That’s one of my favorite quotes though! Irony! That when in need I’m not remembering it 😉 thanks dear. You have a golden heart. Thanks again..
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sometimes things happen to make us stronger. Other times just chuck it and move forward. Hata saawan ki ghata 🙂
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Very poignant and full of emotions!
Loneliness is the worst when you are surrouned by people who know nothing of your state of mind or heart. Well written. You seem to be an expert on broken hearts 😉