Been almost an year, most things forgotten
Musing over the ‘if onlys’ and toying with the idea
The decision I made that affects my present
as well as tomorrow
I wish I could undecide
and release the ghosts of my past.
Overwhelming, unexplained
Out of reach, taunting its very being.
I bet you find this mildly entertaining
a neat waste of time
Already given the power to make me feel so small.
Silence separates, lingering whispers,
whispers in the void, confide in the cold.
“Just a cold, Will muscle through it,
it’ll pass, will be fine”, they say.
But I needed you, to fill the gaps in my fingers,
to calm me down when I shiver.
But you never returned, you didn’t want to.
You regret, I cherish.
You are offended, I hold dear.
“You said the three words, not me.
You were obsessive, you lost me.
You are a liar, you nag, you complain,
You begged, I agreed to share my angst”, you said with a smile.
When all I wanted was
to take your face in my palms,
to wipe away your tears, your fears.
To make you believe in love again,
to pin faith on hope.
“I wish the news of my death also doesn’t reach you”,
you put the final nail in the coffin.
I wish, you could unbreak my heart!
that I could believe
some where out there you’re still thinkin’ of me.
I curl up into a ball, seek refuge
Daunting, relentless screams within
Another life, another time
where love is not lost, but will find a way.
Tagging to #MondayMusings and APED #50:Time
21 comments
Hmm. yeah. the feeling of being alone and broken stays for long sometimes. Not something we want to feel either. We look back and wish we hadn’t decided to let go of that heart and wish the person was still nearby to hold in the cold… but I guess some hearts are better left. Heal soon, Tommy 🙂
Leo @ I Rhyme Without Reason
Aww… tommy? as if I am a cat!!! :O :O
Oh pinne 😛 You know what it means. Chumma oronnu veruthe alojikyaruth. 😉
Haha, I know what it means! 😀 Don’t worry!
I can feel the pain in the poem, and the hope too.
Thanks very much, Vinitha! Been a while since I wrote down a poem. Now relieved! 😀
What a delicious reading… 🙂
Thanks, Lily. Welcome to my space 🙂
Nicely done, and quite heartbreaking.
Thanks, Laurel!
Wonderfully penned poem though I hope it’s fiction! The title reminded me of Toni Braxton’s song “Unbreak My Heart” – are you familiar with it? Google/YouTube it! 😉 <3
Thanks, Elly! Is it? I’m going straight to You tube now 😀
Yes and it’s a sexy song too, that is her voice – this song is really beautiful in my opinion the way she sings it! 😉 <3
The pain oozes out of this beautiful poem. Really heartbreaking!
Thanks very much, Rekha 🙂
Ahh that feeling of having the heart broken..that feeling of the what ifs had things not ended
Wonderfully written
Thanks, Naba! Been a while since I’ve read you. Coming right over!
It’s quite venting out and that’s the best thing about poetry where words gain expression.
Yay! Thanks, Vishal 🙂
Poignant. Stirs some old-suppressed memories.
this so resonates with me! and it brought back a lot of memories!! beautifully expressed