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I sit frozen and numb
All alone by the fire
Not feeling a thing
Nor able to breathe
The deafening silence
Sings a lullaby
And the hollow echo of my own voice
Soothes thy ear.
Apple of their eyes and known for my chirpy, naughty demeanor.
I ran behind a rabbit at three,
Not knowing it was a kitten.
Everyday scraping my knees,
At ten, I told the world that I’d learnt
To ride a bicycle.
Embracing my womanhood
I knew I was transforming to a beautiful lass, at thirteen.
At fifteen, Mamma taught me
That not all boys are the same.
At nineteen, I realized that a mistake is not a crime
And I learnt it the hard way at twenty three.
Still a kid at heart and always deemed as a nine-year old
All I wonder is, is it bad to stay that way?
Sixty seconds had gone by like hours,
As I reminisce over my life of the past
A tear drop down my eye.
And a wish is born,
to be engulfed by the flaming fire.
Life has come to a stand still
But never have I been so sure, than ending my life
Is better than forgetting him.
As I try to de-clutter my mind,
A sane voice gives a silent whisper
“He who treats you like garbage is not worth it, baby”
But the voice in my head assures and screams back at me
I tried, I did try…
So shamelessly, that he asked me
Not to beg when I said please.
I’m giving up all, my dreams, my hopes and so very all.
I loathe to whine but all I do is cry
So weak and empty and so very lost
I feel my pulse on my veins for the very last time.
As I envisage my blood gushing out of my wrist
I discern that I don’t hold a grudge,
He wasn’t worth it
It’s a goodbye from me…to myself
And I am better off to a beautiful world.
freckles for breakfast says
Wow, that was powerful. And I love the picture, is that a real tattoo or pen?
Shalzzz says
Thanks.. 🙂 Guess it’s a real one. Not mine, though 😛
Indywrites says
I am not sure if it is a dark poem or a bright one but very powerful words!
Shalzzz says
Thanks Indy.. even I donno if it’s dark or bright… 🙂
Vinitha says
Wow, Shalini. You penned this one so well, each word showed the emotions effortlessly. I love reading your poems, Shalini. 🙂
Shalzzz says
Thanks, Vinita.. I guess, my poems come out good when I’m sad… 🙂
Vinitha says
Aww! Don’t be sad dear. I hope weaving such good poems erases whatever sadness you are going through. Hugs. <3
Shalzzz says
Kinda…. it’s definitely helping me release my tears Atleast. .. 🙂
confusedhumanity says
brimming with emotions ..great write up
Shalzzz says
Thank you… Glad you liked 🙂
Reema Michelle D'souza says
A powerful poem indeed! You have brought out the emotions very well 🙂
Shalzzz says
Thanks, Reema.. Keep visiting 🙂
ellytreehugger AKA elly stornebrink says
Wow Shalina! This is SO realistic and some people will certainly think this way due to the demise of a relationship with someone who actually is not worth it, not doing that for! 😉 <3
Shalzzz says
Thanks, Elly.. Demise of a Relationship!! Right! Means a lot!! <3
akaushiva says
I’m still wondering whether to interpret this positively or otherwise. Nonetheless, a very powerful one!
Shalzzz says
Thanks, Aditi.. I just went with the flow 😉
akaushiva says
I’m still wondering whether to interpret this positively or otherwise. Nonetheless, a very powerful one!
Pheno Menon says
Anything that moves u is a good poem. dark or light does not matter
PhenoMenon
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Shalzzz says
Glad to hear that. Thanks for visiting, Pheno..
nabanita21 says
Powerful…No one is worth harming ourselves…No one at all
Shalzzz says
I guess so!! Thanks, Naba!
sagarpillai says
Nce come back shalu..as usual powerful one ..
I felt its decribes a bit abt ur lyf …crak in relation from one angle and also felt like a suicide note from other angle!!!
Shalzzz says
Beautiful! You got it right, darling <3 Thanks for your kind words. Keep visiting.
Kathy Combs (@Kathy29156) says
This is so sad and powerful!
crissdude says
That was well written. Will be even better when you write something about getting back at him instead of punishing yourself.
Cheers
CRD
G Angela says
Beautiful expressions… just loved it !
annie says
VERY REFINED AND BEAUTIFUL!
Sheethalsusan says
Thou it was a sad ending, I loved it. Very powerful and so beautiful!
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Prats says
Powerful words! But I like it!
Shalzzz says
Yippeeeyayyy…. on cloud 9♥♥♥