Every day I wake up I have uncertainty looming over my head.
I find myself wondering: Is there all there is? Is this how it is going to be?
“At least you’ve got a comfortable life”, my mind reasons.
But in the darkest of hours when everything seems unfair, unjust
when the world seems far too powerful to put up a fight,
too toxic and destructive to focus on the good,
all I can do is harbor negative feelings and victimize myself.
I mull things over and over in my head
I make plans but I freeze.
My path feels wide and waters unchartered
“How could this be? How could I be so lost.”
When life is riddled with peril,
hope is what I have
I’ll brave through one day at a time,
reminding myself, “You’ll be okay”.
“If today gets difficult, remember the smell of coffee, the way sunlight bounces off a window, the sound of your favorite person’s laugh, the feeling when a song you love comes on, the color of the sky at dusk, and that we are here to take care of each other.” ~Nanea Hoffman
Adding this post to #MondayMusings at Corinne Rodrigues.
I am sorry that you are going through a rough patch, Shalu. It’s never easy. But I really do admire your strength to face this, and stay optimistic. Hugs.
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Hugs, Shalini. Just know that you are loved and prayed for. Will call soon.