Trying hard to concentrate on the book,
She knew she was being looked upon as an alien in the bus
When they were all glued to their smartphones, both with eyes and ears.
Neither did they know her state of mind
Nor that she was trying to scrutinize
She was down in the dumps
Too scared to look out the window pane
or hear a song on her playlist
Everything reminded of him, even the air she breathed.
He came as a chill winter breeze and left like a thunderstorm,
destructing every single drop of love and hope in her.
Trying hard to forgive him, forget him and forgive herself
Her big brown eyes well up with fresh tears.
She was head over heels in love, not having a care in the world
But now she is broken to tiny bits, for which she blames herself.
She danced to mend her broken heart, indulged in hot chocolates,
Fought hard battling her own demons and went defensive
Alas! Questions still prevailed in her heart, Was I a mere distraction he wanted in life?
He has chosen to humiliate her with his silence, mortifying and bemeaning.
Withdrawing herself from any means of admittance
She has shut all doors, giving what he always wanted- solace, peace and space.
He haunts, in her dreams, by her side
When his hand finds her, making it hard to leave and giving her a soothing pain.
Part of her wishing to turn and go back in time
When…she believed in him.
She screams for help fearing of going into depression.
Lost, empty and tormented
not able to feel another thing,
her journey continues in life, hatred and loneliness.
Kathy Combs (@KathyCombs16) says
How overwhelmingly sad!
Shalzzz says
Heartbreaking, Kathy… thanks for visiting!
Sheethalsusan says
Thoughts of very women who felt betrayed by the so called love of their life!
Shalzzz says
And still we go behind love…!! Unbelievable!
annie says
awesome one!!!
Shalzzz says
Thanks, Annie.. glad you stopped by.
Laurel Regan says
So very sad. Poor woman! 🙁
Shalzzz says
🙁 hope she copes up..
nabanita21 says
Ahh the turmoils of hurt, the danger of letting it all slip away due to one person
Shalzzz says
Yeah Naba… letting it all slip away.. 🙁
Shilpa Garg says
Aah! A broken heart bleeds tears! Hope she finds peace, love and happiness again!
ellytreehugger AKA elly stornebrink says
It’s amazing how love can place us at the top of the highest pinnacle and down to the depths of despair. So sad to hear such a tale of woe, yet so common in real life. 😉 <3
rajlakshmi says
it’s so hard to overcome these lonely thoughts of depression… you expressed the pain very well.
Vinitha says
Heartbreaking, Shalini. As always your poems are powerful and have a melancholic tone. I hope you don’t mind me asking, Are you okay? Only beacuse I have noticed that I write impressive poems when I am sad. Don’t mind me asking, okay, please. 🙂
Shalzzz says
Oh no, Vinitha…it’s completely okay.. jus that im gng thru a rough patch..trying to figure out myself more than anything else. I guess I write well when I’m sad. 🙂 thanks much for asking. Means a lot… hugs.. ♥♥
Vinitha says
I understand, rough patches are rough for a reason. It brings out the better in one’ self. And yours is so good. Just that your writings is giving me the idea that the roughness is so crude. That’s why I asked. Keep writing. You will be in my prayers. Just know that we are here for you., okay? Hugs <3.
Shalzzz says
Yeah..everything happens for a reason. But certain things?? Can’t understand the reason though!! May be it makes you realise how low a person can stoop down. Thanks for having me in your prayers. Guess I need that more than anything 🙂
Vinitha says
It is called life, right. Those certain things are there in everyone’s life. I have too. Unanswered and twisted. Getting through is the hardest. Even now I can’t think of them without getting teary eyed and a broken heart. But the point is, ‘This too shall pass’. And I am sure you will pass with flying colors dear. 🙂
Shalzzz says
That’s one of my favorite quotes though! Irony! That when in need I’m not remembering it 😉 thanks dear. You have a golden heart. Thanks again..
Vinitha says
:)<3
Pheno Menon (@pravs) says
sometimes things happen to make us stronger. Other times just chuck it and move forward. Hata saawan ki ghata 🙂
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menons129 says
Very poignant and full of emotions!
AdiTi says
Loneliness is the worst when you are surrouned by people who know nothing of your state of mind or heart. Well written. You seem to be an expert on broken hearts 😉