It’s a Spicy Saturday Pick!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I sit frozen and numb
All alone by the fire
Not feeling a thing
Nor able to breathe
The deafening silence
Sings a lullaby
And the hollow echo of my own voice
Soothes thy ear.
Apple of their eyes and known for my chirpy, naughty demeanor.
I ran behind a rabbit at three,
Not knowing it was a kitten.
Everyday scraping my knees,
At ten, I told the world that I’d learnt
To ride a bicycle.
Embracing my womanhood
I knew I was transforming to a beautiful lass, at thirteen.
At fifteen, Mamma taught me
That not all boys are the same.
At nineteen, I realized that a mistake is not a crime
And I learnt it the hard way at twenty three.
Still a kid at heart and always deemed as a nine-year old
All I wonder is, is it bad to stay that way?
Sixty seconds had gone by like hours,
As I reminisce over my life of the past
A tear drop down my eye.
And a wish is born,
to be engulfed by the flaming fire.
Life has come to a stand still
But never have I been so sure, than ending my life
Is better than forgetting him.
As I try to de-clutter my mind,
A sane voice gives a silent whisper
“He who treats you like garbage is not worth it, baby”
But the voice in my head assures and screams back at me
I tried, I did try…
So shamelessly, that he asked me
Not to beg when I said please.
I’m giving up all, my dreams, my hopes and so very all.
I loathe to whine but all I do is cry
So weak and empty and so very lost
I feel my pulse on my veins for the very last time.
As I envisage my blood gushing out of my wrist
I discern that I don’t hold a grudge,
He wasn’t worth it
It’s a goodbye from me…to myself
And I am better off to a beautiful world.